A new SCA direction

After receiving what was mostly really good advice from people, I have decided to pick myself up by the bootstraps and take myself in a new SCA direction.  In so many ways, the most obvious and best answer seems to be the most elusive – putting effort into things that I *want* to do, rather than on the things that I think *need* to be done, even if I don’t really enjoy doing them. 

 

So simple, so obvious, and yet such a foreign concept to my brain.  Too long, I have said, “Yes” out of a feeling of guilt.  (You can take the altar boy out of the Catholic Church…)  Nobody to blame but myself on this one, really. 

 

The truth is, I have been feeling burned out.  This malaise has hit so many of my friends lately, mainly I believe as a result of the climate that has hit Caid over the past few years (although I am delighted to report that recent events have turned that whole thing around wonderfully).  For me, it hasn’t been the climate so much, but just an unexplainable feeling of… I dunno… being lost and without purpose.  While I may not always enjoy every job that I do, I DO enjoy feeling needed.  It is comforting.

 

Over the course of the next year or so, here are some of the things I’d like to do…

 

-         Hand over the last of the offices that I hold.  I have shed most of them already.  I will soon end my 3 or 4-year stint of hosting Kingdom Scriptorium.  As for KMoAS, I have one more year until I can receive the ottoman to go with my retired officer rocker so that I can sit comfortably on the Retired Officer Porch and wag my cane at the young whipper-snappers. 

-         Work on smaller, more concentrated projects that I really enjoy doing.

-         Think about the next pentathlon.  The last one inspired me so much, I think I’d actually like to enter again.  Hmmmm…

-         Get crackin’ on embroidery.  I am JONESIN’ big time to start on my Opus Anglicanum project.  The start has been delayed for ages because of time and materials (quite literally).  I have the design all planned out (usually a HUGE problem for me), and now I want to just get goin’ on it.  Hopefully, this weekend!

-         The Italian Renn. Themed event.  As much as I really do not enjoy autocratting, the only way to make this vision come into being will be to make it happen.  I think I’ll start out small, hoping that it might catch on and over the years grow into something larger.  We’ll see how that works.  Ah, but just thinking about it – the food, the songs, the dances, the décor, and of course bocce… it simply must happen.

-         Classes.  When it comes down to it, I enjoy teaching.  I need to figure out what I would LIKE to teach.

 

I’ll probably still hang out in the kitchens quite a bit.  Heck, I enjoy them much more than I enjoy sitting through court anyway.  I may have to work on a cool themed feast sometime in a year or so.

 

Time to reinvent!