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Anybody out there know my anatomy?
Dec. 14th, 2005 09:01 amOK, I admit that is an odd lead-in, but hear me out.
Yesterday, I found myself in the most horrible depression. It was so bad, I left work early. I couldn't function. I couldn't do any of my projects. Hell, I couldn't even cook dinner. It seemed like too much.
Now, having said that, what is odd about this scenario? It is NOT the new moon, so we cannot compensate in the typical way. Nor am I a manic-depressive. When I took a couple of valerian tablets, that didn't even help. What the f#$($? I rode out the evening, and went to bed.
This morning, a new idea occured to me. On Monday, after a really, really good workout, I got to the locker room, undressed, and was stepping into the hottub when IT happened. Shear - white lightening - agonizing - stabbing pain in the lowest of my low-back. My back just locked, and I couldn't even react. Being half-way on a step when it happened, I collapsed into the tub - fortunately into a seat with a direct hot-jet of water to the very spot. I sat there for a bit, unable to move. I don't know WHY I had a back-ache, but I did. I recall once when this happened before a side-effect of the back-spasm (or disk shift, or whatever the hell it was), was an emotional roller-coaster as a result of chemical release.
Anybody out there know anatomy well enough to give me some insights into what this was, what to do, and how to avoid it again?
Yesterday, I found myself in the most horrible depression. It was so bad, I left work early. I couldn't function. I couldn't do any of my projects. Hell, I couldn't even cook dinner. It seemed like too much.
Now, having said that, what is odd about this scenario? It is NOT the new moon, so we cannot compensate in the typical way. Nor am I a manic-depressive. When I took a couple of valerian tablets, that didn't even help. What the f#$($? I rode out the evening, and went to bed.
This morning, a new idea occured to me. On Monday, after a really, really good workout, I got to the locker room, undressed, and was stepping into the hottub when IT happened. Shear - white lightening - agonizing - stabbing pain in the lowest of my low-back. My back just locked, and I couldn't even react. Being half-way on a step when it happened, I collapsed into the tub - fortunately into a seat with a direct hot-jet of water to the very spot. I sat there for a bit, unable to move. I don't know WHY I had a back-ache, but I did. I recall once when this happened before a side-effect of the back-spasm (or disk shift, or whatever the hell it was), was an emotional roller-coaster as a result of chemical release.
Anybody out there know anatomy well enough to give me some insights into what this was, what to do, and how to avoid it again?
