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OK, I’ll fess up. Without sharing TMI, I’ll just say that I have been feeling like utter CRAP for the past two weeks or so. Each day has been a challenge. I’ve been very tired. I have skipped the gym for the longest span that I can recall in the past several years. And, to put it mildly, I feel like a flabby, washed-out, 30% version of my typical self, and I just hate it, hate it, hate it!
The cause? Probably myself. If the medical information out there is right, this is probably a combination of stress (Hi, my name is Joe… and I’m a stress-a-holic), and just doing too many things at one time (Hi, my name is Joe… and I burn the candle at both ends). Basically, after over a month of back-to-back activities where there was little (or no) time to recoup from one before jumping right into the other, I think something inside snapped. From the time that I returned home from Florida a few weeks ago, I started goin’ downhill and now have all kinds of symptoms that are stress-related.
Siiiiiiigh.
I need – NEED – to rest – and continue to rest.
I need – NEED – to learn that unlike earlier points in my life, I now have some limitations.
I need – NEED – to work on balance and finding more Joe-time.
Heck, I need to look back at some of my mantra’s from the 80’s. Howard Jones said it best…
“The old man said to me said: Don't always take life so seriously.
Play the flute and dance and sing your song.
Try and enjoy the here and now, the future will take care of itself somehow
The grass is never greener over there.”
Who am I competing with?
What am I trying to accomplish?
Am I TRYING to send myself into an early grave?
These are questions that I have for myself. And I need to take some time to soul-search and figure some things out. At least I’ll have something to think about while I continue to lay out exhausted on the couch.
Siiiigh.
The cause? Probably myself. If the medical information out there is right, this is probably a combination of stress (Hi, my name is Joe… and I’m a stress-a-holic), and just doing too many things at one time (Hi, my name is Joe… and I burn the candle at both ends). Basically, after over a month of back-to-back activities where there was little (or no) time to recoup from one before jumping right into the other, I think something inside snapped. From the time that I returned home from Florida a few weeks ago, I started goin’ downhill and now have all kinds of symptoms that are stress-related.
Siiiiiiigh.
I need – NEED – to rest – and continue to rest.
I need – NEED – to learn that unlike earlier points in my life, I now have some limitations.
I need – NEED – to work on balance and finding more Joe-time.
Heck, I need to look back at some of my mantra’s from the 80’s. Howard Jones said it best…
“The old man said to me said: Don't always take life so seriously.
Play the flute and dance and sing your song.
Try and enjoy the here and now, the future will take care of itself somehow
The grass is never greener over there.”
Who am I competing with?
What am I trying to accomplish?
Am I TRYING to send myself into an early grave?
These are questions that I have for myself. And I need to take some time to soul-search and figure some things out. At least I’ll have something to think about while I continue to lay out exhausted on the couch.
Siiiigh.
